kayleighhgirl

life is still so confuzing, its like i spend most days trying to figure out if this is even real or not, when my mom died i was 9 i would always just pretend that she was just gone, that she was coming back. sometimes i would try to blow out all the dandilen seeds and whish but i could never really get all the seeds to blow out. sometimes i would pretend that my mom was a secret agent and that everything had been staged that one day she was coming back. Also for the longest time i was conviced that this was just a really bad dream that one day i was going to wake up and everything would be back to normal again. sometimes i still think i am in a dream but, over the last year or two i have been able to start to face reality and it sucks, because she i never coming back. I have found that talking about it helps expecially to other girls whos moms are dead. also finding sarrogate moms helps, but sometimes this is difficult because it hurts to let other feamals in at all.