ralphandangelad

It has only been a month since I buried my mother. This very day 1 month ago I had to lay my mother in the ground and I am so depressed I can't stand it. I can't really talk to anyone about it. Everyone has gone on with their lives.  My husband just talks about work and it is like I am invisible. Here alone to mourn and to hurt and noone sees that I am hurting so bad. Even my brother seems to have moved on. I can't stand this pain. I don't know what to do with myself everyday. I miss her so much and I just look at her picture everyday and think to myself "My god how can you be gone?" I never thought my mother would die. I thought she would live on forever. But she didn't. My mother was my only biological parent in my life. So now I am left parentless. My step dad loves me I know he does but noone can ever take the place of my mom. She was my best friend. The one I talked to when I was feeling down, or scared or happy or whatever the emotion was it was her that I would talk to. Who do I go to now? I don't get the same feeling of peace that I used to get when I would talk to my mom. And my baby is learning to do so much since my mom passed and I can't call her and tell her. She would be so proud of Kristina. She was so proud of her. Out of my 3 girls Kristina was the one who is just like my mom. She looks so much like her and my mom was so proud of her. I can't stand this pain..I just want it to go away. ~Angela