ralphandangelad

Wow. I haven't been on here in so long and honestly had forgotten that I had even posted on here till I recieved a notification tonight from Kate who lost her mom just 4 days ago. I remember the pain of those days so well. The pain hasn't lessend I have just gotten on my meds for depression and it has numbed me a little and at times I wish I could cry the hurt out and at times I am so thankful for the numbing feeling. And right now is one of the days I am thankful for the numbness. Monday will be the 1 yr anniversary of my moms death.. She was pronounced dead on Saturday Feb. 9th 2008. And that day when I got the phone call I was at the basketball game with my girls who are cheerleaders. And that was also the day they were having their pictures made....and today is the Saturday before her anniversary and what was I doing today? I was at the basketball game with my girls and they were having their pictures made. Wanna talk about a terrible feeling? I wouldn't even answer my phone today at the game.

Now altough it hurts losing my mom and missing her so much, I am doing something positive in honor of my mom. My husband and I are becoming foster parents. Even though we have 3 beautiful girls we are going to open our home to another child who doesn't have the love and security and safety that our girls know. I know my mom would be so proud of me for doing this. Cause see my mom was a victim of molestation when she was a little girl by her sisters husband and although I wasn't even a thought in my moms mind back then I still wished that I could have protected her from that hurt and I look at this as an opportunity to help some other child from becoming that victim. If I can help one child from being hurt then I feel like I will be honoring my moms spirit.

For all who read this I just want to say May God bless you with all his grace and glory and bring you peace of mind to be able to make it through the hard times. ~Angela