My darling Mother

My mother passed away christmas eve 2007 at the young age of 60.  She battled pancreatic cancer for a year and a half but was misdiagnosed for a year of it.  She suffered and kept a brave face and a strong positive attitude.  I live in Florida and she lived in upstate NY.  It wasn't easy for me to see her but I talked to her every day. Even before she was diagnosed, we would talk if not every day then every other.  She was more than a mother to me, she was my best friend.  It has been a month and a half since she passed and everyday is a new challenge.  I try to talk to her daily but I feel so lost and empty inside.  I know I have to be brave and go on daily for my own daughter who is four.  But it is so hard because I think of how much my mother my mother loved my daughter.  It also killed me to think of how little she got to see her due to our distance.  I hate to think of my daughter growing up not knowing how special and loving and wonderful my mother was.  Stories will help but to feel her hug or hear her voice made you feel her love. I am having a very hard time dealing with the grief, some times I think I will be okay but other times I can't breathe it hurts so bad.