Laura81171
8 years and still grieving
I haven't a clue what has come over me today. My mother has been on my mind, which is not unusual. What is unusual is that I am angry that she is not here anymore.
It has been 8 years since my mom passed away from a cerebral aneurysm. I had spoken to her 15 minutes before my Dad found her. I had just gotten done telling her how proud I was of her because she had been substitute teaching for a class that she was a teacher's aide for. Told her how much the kids loved her and how excited I was that she wanted to get back into teaching.
I was in my late 20s at the time...married with two children. According to mom, my sister and I had finally achieved what she had always wanted for us...our own families.
Back to my feelings of anger.... The anger isn't geared towards my mom, but rather the fact that I still have a lot of parenting to do with my own children and she's not around to ask for advice. She's not around to ask for advice about anything that a daughter needs her own mother for and it stinks. It stinks big time.
I find myself resenting people when I see someone buying a greeting card for their mom on Mother's Day because I don't get to. I get pissed when friend's complain even the slightest bit about their mother's who are alive, because at least they have them.
What am I to do? When does a person get over losing their mother? Do we ever? UGH!!!!!!
Current mood: Angry
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